Hey guys, how are you doing?
I hope you're all fine, I feel like the most horrible person on earth who deserve to die.
I thought that one day I'll leave the Internet, this is most likely to be the day. I'm not allowed to listen to music anymore and I'm not allowed to make art anymore. Basically, I'm not allowed have a passion and to express myself. I personally don't know how to react to it, I keep saying that I don't know but I do know. I'm just denying everything. It hurts and I don't want to do it. I don't want to get into detail because it's a bit personal. I will leave the internet, not just Deviantart.
No, this is not a joke.
Before I leave, however, I just want to say thank you so much to everyone here on Deviantart. More specifically to all of my friends I've made here. Some of you stayed long enough here on dA, some of you became inactive and never come back. I miss my friends who've left this site but I know that hopefully they are fine. And I'll miss all of you who is still here on Deviantart. I'll miss my watchers even if you're active on faving or commenting on my stuff or not. I'll miss all of the conversation I have made with you guys. You guys and the Internet are the one who made me who I am today. I would not know a lot of things if I didn't know the Internet and if I didn't met you guys. You guys are one of my inspiration, a reminder, I'm not the only one and I'm never alone and to keep calm and carry on. I'm very grateful I've met all of you.
And I'd like to say sorry if I ever made a mistake or I have hurt you before. I'm an idiot and just selfish and think about what I want. I'm sorry if I have ever said anything offensive or rude. I'm sorry that all I want is to win an argument. Please forgive me for all of my mistakes I've made, I want to learn from my mistakes and I want you to forgive for what I have done in the past.
I don't know if I will come back, but if I do come back I'm not sure what I'll do. I'm not sure what I'll do when I leave too. I suppose I'll just waste my days doing nothing. Just feeling empty again. I won't deactivate this account because I don't really feel like it. Besides, I don't want to delete everything I've made.
I guess this is it, there's not much to say. I'll most likely still be around for a few days because I'll miss everything here but I will leave the Internet 100%, I just need some time... I'm not leaving alone either. Well, this is my goodbye, I'm grateful to have met you and I'm sorry if I hurt you.